In limbo.

Summer is here... sort of.

So apparently I can't get a handle on this whole blog thing unless I actually have a lot going on. I will try harder.

Right now, I'm working for the Office of New Student Programs as an office assistant... biding my time before starting my real job. I feel like I'm in limbo, just living day to day and being more excited about the future than I am about this moment. I keep thinking... everything will be super fun in just a couple weeks. I just have to get through this somewhat boring phase, and then summer will really begin.

I realized today that if i keep telling myself, I'm cutting out about three weeks of summer that could be amazing personally and randomly. I thought this summer may be a semi-adventure with a new job and several new friends, but now I'm thinking it may be a lot more about me personally. My last couple of summers in Chapel Hill have been fantastic, but I was surrounded by people the entire time. These were definitely people I loved, and we had an insane amount of fun. I learned a lot about the world and myself as a leader. However, I haven't really just taken a few weeks to rediscover who I am and reflect on who I have become since college began.

I think these next couple weeks will provide me the perfect opportunity to do just that. I'm still pumped about working with Duke TIP when the time comes, but even then I wouldn't be devastated if it ended up just being a cool job and not a life-changing experience. I've been blessed with a lot of those. I think I need a little help with recognizing what a blessing a summer can be that may not be life-changing.

We'll see. Things are almost never what I expect them to be, because God has a much better idea of how to use me and what makes up a great life.